I’m not sure when my Spiritual pathway actually started although I have always questioned…

I suppose after I lost my dad and then my mum I really started to think about things quietly as not too many people ‘talked about it’. Although as my children grew they too had the same interest so  that made things easier and my middle daughter Jackie who happens to be profoundly deaf was always sensing  and even feeling at times my mum and dad around then her mother- in- law too when she passed, so I guess we were already on our journey but not quite aware of it..

It really opened up when a very close friend of mine was very upset when she lost her dog and one day asked me if I thought her dog could be around as she had been looking after a friends dog when he started growling and acting strange when it came close to’ pepsi’s ‘ special place in the garden..

That conversation opened up the floodgates and from then on we had regular discussions and John Edwards was on the television then Colin Fry then of course our Tony.

I joined Tony Stockwell.com and then things really opened up.

Roy also became interested although at one time he was the biggest sceptic I had ever come across but he too like me listened to Colin and Tony giving their evidence and felt there was too much to be ignored in fact eventually he was watching more than I was, all the repeats too.

I talked to the girls on the site listening to their experiences but felt I had none of this. I neither saw or felt anything in particular and wondered where exactly my role in this might be. I did however after watching Colin one day ask a young lady who had a picture on the wall that had moved and I thought maybe I would do the same and see what would happen.

Around Christmas it is my birthday and I hung my cards on the railing that goes up the stairs and unknown to any one I asked Spirit if  a card might move. Funnily enough one did and it was a card with ‘MUM’ on that one of my daughters had sent me. Of course this proved nothing except it made me realise I had to ask for a specific card to move.   So I placed a special card  (like a post card) in my bedroom in a way that it would fall in only one way if a draught or something similar made it move. I had a photo frame also in front of it that would make it difficult to fall on its own again unknown to anyone I asked Spirit to move it.

In between this I joined the local Spiritualist Church and really enjoyed Sunday evenings.

Around a month later I had still not had any messages from anyone or anything to let me know where I was on this journey of mine until one night I had been on the site talking to Pamela and Freddy and said that I had never received a message.  Freddy said I would receive one if it were felt I needed one.

So I couldn’t believe it when going to bed the same night, Roy was with as we entered the room together that the card had moved.. It was completely on it’s side in front of the frame it was amazing I could not believe it I was almost frightened to touch it feeling that someone special had in fact moved this card for me .I can tell you I hardly slept that night.

A couple of weeks later I had my first message and it was from a medium that can I say was not the best I had heard except that when she chose me (slotted in at the end as she had not had a good evening) She said she had my Mother with and her description was ok. She said I had had a sign, I had asked for proof and I had received it also that the path I was on was the right one  (This was the answer to a question I had asked Spirit). Needless to say I was amazed.

Where to go from here I thought

I wrote to Annie Sharman for advice and she advised thank goodness that to go on one of Tony’s seminars, which of course I did.

I have met the most amazing people that give their love and support freely and unconditionally and have helped me through two very distressing but also loving years of my life.

Which brings me to this year.

As most of you know my darling Roy passed over this year and as you can imagine it has been a very sad time for me and as we had 47 years of marriage together just the normal marriage with the usual ups and downs but one filled with loads of love.

Roy had been really ill for the last two years when life was become a real struggle and very hard for him although I know he was helped with the love and healing that had been sent through everyone attached to TS.com.

After he passed when I would be at my lowest I would pray that Roy would get in touch with Tony for me it had to be Tony as I knew that he knew that is what I would be asking because as we all do… we love and respect his special way of giving messages.

I knew he was listening as I had something special happened in May that I was sure was coming from Roy.

It made my belief all the stronger that Roy was still around although it did not stop this terrible feeling of his loss of his physical presence… And still I asked for a message from Tony also in the deepest hours when the tears would not stop I asked for just one more minute.

Two of my friends that are Mediums had said they would give me a reading but for whatever reason, maybe I felt I needed to wait until I was at Stansted when to be honest I had hoped I might have a reading from Tony.

Obviously Tony was really busy at it was not an option but I booked a reading with one of the other tutors for the Thursday.

Tuesday evening Tony was giving a trance demonstration for two groups one of which was mine so all day we were all eagerly waiting for the time when we would see Tony in trance for many of us the first time.

The time duly arrived and Stuart told us how the evening would be arranged and of course everyone put his or her hands up when he asked who would like to go forward to Star if invited.

Also Stuart felt he would not be able to choose so he handed that over to Natalie

The demonstration was amazing, to see Tony’s face and voice change to Zintar is something I will never forget and then Star came forward and his face and voice changed again was more than wonderful.

The first person was called forward and had a beautiful message. 

I still go over and over in my mind what happened next when I realized Natalie called my name, gobsmacked I suppose is the word I have to use when my name called out this was more than I had been praying for.

I sat in front of Tony who didn’t look like or sound like Tony and held his hands and I listened to the most beautiful words, all of which Roy would have said if he had been sitting there himself even the funny bit about counting the money as Roy always told me off for doing this as it was something he never did he never ever knew how much he had either in his pocket or in the bank and it is definitely something I had been doing over the last months.

The most fantastic thing of all Star said Roy was coming through to hold my hands, for me the air was electric I could see Tony’s face was changing again especially around the eyes and I felt Roy’s presence. I now now the truth. Believing is one thing knowing is another I feel blessed. My message had come from the source and Spirit had given me my minute.

This will last me forever if I never get another message I will be happy with what I have had.

When I stood up to return to my seat I was amazed to see so many of you lovely people in tears where as I had just sat in the beauty of it all and felt so peaceful

How wonderful is that.

I still cry, I still miss every ounce of him yet I feel calmer and stronger now in all that I know.

Later I spoke to Natalie and she said she had unconsciously called my name. She had asked her guides for help she was not aware of where I was sat but my name just seem to come from nowhere.

Trust. Believe and all will be revealed….. is something is something dear to my heart

Patsy